I really can’t believe how much has changed in the past 24 hours.
Yesterday I was standing in a Walmart when I got a panicked call from our realtor telling me my mom wasn’t picking up her phone. We were bidding on a house and there were ten minutes left. I panicked and called her on Facebook messenger, she picked up. Nine minutes.
Our realtor needed to put in the bid so we quickly talked and she called him back.
Seven minutes.
I walked around the store checking my phone. Three minutes. Two minutes. One, and the auction closed.
“Honey, we got the house” my mom texted me. Deep sigh of relief. Thank God, I thought.
Fast forward 23 hours later, I’m sitting in the kitchen in my Uncle’s house in a large t-shirt and leggings after a relaxing Saturday. I woke up, went to the gym with my mom, went to the Library to register for a card, ate lunch, did some work, went to volunteer at an elderly centre, and now I’m back to work some more.
I can’t stop thinking about a conversation I had with my Uncle at lunch. To be honest, I’m really struggling with money. I know something has to change, but I’m not sure what. My Uncle was suggesting I get my Realty License or start filing taxes for people, and I’ve thought about getting odd jobs too, but I won’t. Not yet, but it’s tough not to. I know the moment I do, my dreams will suffer, or my health will and I’ve come too far now to quit.
I don’t know what the right answer is, but I’m sure that taking time to study things in the opposite direction of my goal pretty much negates the past few months of my life. Everything I keep reading is telling me it’s supposed to be this hard, that it’s supposed to feel this uncertain, and that most people quit because this- sticking with it- is the hardest part.
I know I’m making progress. My interview with Dan is doing really well, my content and editing is getting better, and I can’t believe how much better I’ve gotten in 50 days. A job in marketing is definitely take, but a job I'm not interested in feels like the wrong choice at this moment.
This experience is teaching me everything I thought I felt about money wasn't true. I quit my past jobs because I didn't feel fulfilled. I feel that here, I hope I can hold on long enough to stay.
Anyways, tomorrow is my rest day.
For content today I’ve created:
-One GMAT YouTube video
-An Instagram Carousel
-This Blog
-A TikTok/ Reel
-A promotion post for Dan’s episode
-Poem for my poetry account
I’m really excited for a rest tomorrow. I am going to try and film a Youtube video too, but I gotta move fast.
See ya Monday!
All the best,
Laura Mai
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